Aisling's Decluttering Journal
20 April - 15 May 2003

"It's not the money so much as the lack of laughter..." That's what's been missing for so many years. Even when there was laughter, it was at the expense of others. It was a surly, oh-aren't-we-superior kind of laughing. And while I do tend to be elitist at times--I think that we all do, in our own way now & then--it's been the only humor that he & I shared consistently. And frankly, that's amusing at times, but not funny.

There is not a chance that he could spend an afternoon in a Dollar Store, grinning like a kid over the toys and funky stuff, for example.

I wanted this to work, but really, I think that the poverty was amazing in some ways.

In other ways, frankly, we made the best of it. My children and I had some fabulous times together. I can't say that I have any huge regrets, or that I'd trade the great times with my children for anything else... not money, not romance, not stability... nothing.

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