27 Apr 02
Instead of going to MR with the friend who'd invited me, I slept last night. Pretty much on my own most of the past week, I've discovered many things about myself, most of them good and all of them helpful.
On my own, I tend to eat healthy food: some meat, and lots of fresh fruits & veggies, raw. I also sleep on a funky schedule, not necessarily "Irish time." And, it's this situation that's draining me of energy; on my own, I flip back into the hyperactive mode, doing art 12 - 14 hours a day.
However, if I keep exhaling art for 5+ days, I reach a point that's sort of like burnout. But I know it's just the need to inhale. So, today I may go letterboxing or something that's a real "inhale" experience for me; something that dazzles me.
Knowing that Duncan returns tonight... last night I hit stress again. Not big, bad Evil Stress, but enough that I noted the change after a week of joyous art and self-discovery.
And, without the steady drone of being angry & frustrated with my situation at home, in this past week I've finally been able to grok what's been going on in my outside-the-house life, or at least an important part of it. That alone has been fabulous! *whew!*
And the art I have accomplished... amazing. On one level, it's been a little uncomfortable, because I knew that this was my week to accomplish things. So, I left things where they fell... laundry, office supplies, leftover art supplies, and so on. I figure, hey, I can clean when Duncan's around; it's making art that's the challenge. So, the house looks a bit of a wreck right now. *shrug*
Nevertheless, this morning I woke up and spotted some orange tissue paper on the floor next to my bed, and it inspired today's collage.
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One thing about these collages is that I never know what they're about until they're finished. I pick images & text at random. Then I whip out the gel medium and start gluing things in place, working solely with what "looks good" as opposed to any particular message or pattern to it.
When it's finished, I can see what's going on inside myself, in a way. It's amazing insight.
Today, I half-covered the words "harsh realities" and "lose hope" with the banner phrase, "a second chance." Still, "conflicting messages," deliberately split, lingers fully in sight.
The baby turtle scampering for the sea seemed right to me today. I'm not certain why, yet, but it does.
At the end of the rainbow, I have phrases such as "inspiration" and "the result could be enormous." And I used lots of colored gold & copper leaf there as well.
I think it speaks for itself. Then again, all of these collages do. Yes, it's a message.
Wishing you rich and creative days filled with dazzling inspiration,
What I'm reading right now: Stacks of unread magazines!
What I'm listening to right now: Dr. John, Anutha Zone
What I'm watching right now: Allegria and Only You
